Cinders

Everyday memories are made and some you only wish would fade

Yet every day it seems they only burn brighter 

Yet is it just that you choose to let this fire scold you?

Can you not hold the ember and use it to ignite your fire

Harrowing thoughts are only meant to serve as a gentle reminder  

The lengths of your intellect will remain your only constraint

Speculations over a fault long forgotten only exceedingly expresses a once healed scar

Your only escape is to ease the degree of your imperious psyche

A strenuous task even for the most tranquil being

Just remember liberation will never evade your grasp

The capacity for freedom lies in your misery

Embers set a blaze by agonizing memories scorched on your thoughts

Average Life

      What do you consider an average life? Is an average life really what it sounds like? For the longest time I've really been pondering why it feels like I'm getting myself stuck in this average life of mine, for a long time it really unsettled me. After debating about this in my mind for weeks, I've realized something,  my life may appear average in every way, maybe even below average, but my life is AMAZING!
     I've brought tears, joy, anger, happiness, laughter, and hope to people I've encountered on my life, that is such an amazing feeling that is so under appreciated in modern society. The famous and elite of this world are in no way above average by todays standards, we're just trained to believe so and work toward that, and well it's bullshit.
      What makes you who you are and your life worth living and so above average, is your encounters with the people you know and love in your daily life. That is such a powerful and great feeling, never ever forget that. I see people who can drop a rhyme in ten seconds like no one else and have me in tears laughing so hard, people who create powerful art that I can hardly embrace, people with the kindest most gentle hearts, people who will just outright make you laugh for the most outrageous things. Yet here we are trying to live a so called above average life, and we forget all about this little things that define us and bring us the most heartwarming joy.
      The little things we do for others without even realizing or comprehending it, is what makes our lives so very above average. I write this and I can hardly contain my joy because I'm so thankful for all the joy, laughs, and sadness everyone has distilled in me, because it such a powerful feeling. We overlook how powerful our emotions are and what it means to connect on an emotional level. That very ability is what makes everyone god damn person on this planet above average, don't ever forget. Embrace that, love it, take it in stride, and don't forget you are very above average.

Future Days

      I read a quote the other day, its exact words I know not, but the fact is, what it said really hit home with me. The exact quote I know not, to poorly paraphrase it read something similar to " You tell yourself it will happen in the future to put off making it happen in the present"
     The point being the immensity of my goals at 14 compared to 18 have changed a plethora. Not necessarily saying that is a bad thing, it's not exactly a good thing. I've given up my extreme goals to meet more realistic goals and desires. However, those desires and goals, will never be my dreams, they don't compare! The sad fact is every day I tell myself "well so-and-so wasn't famous till he was older" that's how I sleep at night, and why I'm awake now. I sleep at night because they some people didn't impact the world till they were so much older. Yet as of now I sit here awake because I know that a day hadn't gone by with those people where they hadn't uncontrollably thought and worked toward their dreams.
      Yet here I am, and I don't even know how I'm trying to change how people think ,or how the world operates. Still, I make it a goal! You know how stringent and constant that ever so subtle stress is on the human body? I beat myself to Hell at times, yet I have no clue why it seems.
      I guess my only point is, the time is never tomorrow, but instead it is today, it's never too late to make a change no matter the immensity of the change! You have to have the power of will to tell yourself you can do it, and even to make it happen.