My hands, they are rough I keep my mindset tough As I walk this unfamiliar trail With a face so pale Fear running through me But I wont let you see Beads of sweat on my brow I will figure out how Confidence strikes me I can find who I'm meant to be In this path less traveled In happiness I will be reveled I'll roll with every blow Even if the going gets slow I'm in pursuit of bliss Better than the sweetest kiss The jack of all trades My talent always fades Knacks never mastered Yet positively altered I find joy quick Still it's so basic True happiness seems rare All a little unfair My life is in the making With excitement I am shaking Constantly being restored Every time I start to get bored I'll find my true skill Working with my iron will Arts left to be honed As each one becomes toned

I slowly breathe in Gasping on this air so thin I'm tearing from within Remembering every sin I want to scream and shout But a word, I won't let out In my beliefs I am not devout My body flows full of doubt These poems are all the same There's no point to this game I have only myself to blame As my head rest in shame These wounds Inflicted with no gain Like I'm working against the grain I lash out in vain So oblivious to this pain The origin of it still unknown Maybe it's not all my own With it's presence I don't condone I shouldn't feel so alone People who care surround me Willing to help for no fee Still I fear they'll flee For my intentions are hard to see

This world becomes so black and white I'm changing for no reason The purpose remaining unknown My mind is fading out of sight Like the change of season Who I am is never shown My abilities never found I don't want to be another shadow Like an echo lost in the dead of night My feet are planted to the ground As I try to escape this sorrow I won't go down without a fight I try tell yell, But I start to choke This fear within in me takes control Your judgement isn't unseen It makes me wish I'd never spoke As your emotions begin to unroll My eyes remain so very keen

My body is filled with hate Because my thoughts, they all negate Rage growing at a dangerous rate This pain is in control As it buries me in this hole Keeping me from every goal I wish to be left alone As my hearts transforms to stone And I step down from my throne Everything has been given Still I am not risen I'm no longer at peace in my skin My thoughts feel so dark Leaving a piercing mark Let me make this my last remark My thoughts become wild As my brain grows defiled This affliction for from mild

My thoughts become so twirled Within these words I yell out As I lay here mad at the world And show to you all, I'm filled with doubt To you all I try to be so frank Yet I'm separated with every thought Emotions fill this page, yet feels so blank For my pain, well it is not sought Strength is present when it need not be Yet when it calls, I am broken Look and that much you will see Words I should have spoken Yell out to me in the dead of night I wonder who is to blame My strength leaves me without a fight No longer can I play this game