Ball and Chain

Growin' up I was never told to be a simple man

Or to be something I love and understand
It was always thought that I should have the upper hand

I just gotta learn what it is that compels me

I promise give me time, some day you'll see

Because its not just about the score on some SAT

I hope never feel like I did those days

But the sting of the pain I feel always

Day by day I'm searching for some of Lifes many joys

I don't want whats past, or what's ahead, I only want what is now

Let me make my mistakes and raise some hell for now

With ignorance and joys of immaturity I will howl

I cant wait for happiness to appear

Because never finding it is my biggest fear

I know you have so much to say, but its like I cant hear 

Eventually ill find a light in this clouded sky

Until then i can't let life pass me by

Maybe someday ill catch the breeze and fly

I just need my chance to be insane 

Maybe someday it will all be to my gain

I can't spend my life a prisoner of disdain

And the fact of the matter is my mind is at war

It's like with so much guidance I'm left here tore

Someday with age, and lack of knowledge my body will grow sore

Until then I'm asking for even more slack to the rope

I know it seems like I'll be left without a single hope

Thing is until then a part of me will always mope