Insight On My Mind

I sit here and comprehend life all from within 

Speculate on how my life is shaped by every sin

 Managing to stay together as I hold so much in 

To no one will these thoughts ever be kin

 In the eyes of others I appear external 

They could not even ponder what is internal 

Only I know about this mind of mine that is an infernal 

Silently I remain here, this unpopped kernel 

 At times on the verge of explosion Somehow

 I always resist that bit of erosion 

Yet I'm constantly altered by corrosion

 Held together by the strangest fusion 

The thoughts indicated are not my bane 

I am thankful because they guide me through pain 

So I will abide and allow them to cut my chain 

As they push me to find every last bit of gain 

In times of frustration I only wish to be kind 

While I curse this elegantly hidden corner of my mind

 Because with anger I can be boldly headlined 

Then I realize there is so much more to be aligned

 My mind is not the problem, I need not let my anger lead 

With all this understanding still remains an unplanted seed

 At times my anger controls me as I attempt to bleed

 I realize that with my mind I must plead 

So I request it help me find a better way 

Lost, I petition for a solution day after day 

With this burden I embark only to feel I've been led astray 

Then the black and white begin to fade, and I spot the gray 

Beginning I am lost, But with every article I am found 

These words give the music of my mind it's sound 

They show me it's meaning and lift me from the ground 

No longer by anger do I deem myself bound 

Because of these words duly noted, I am liberated 

So much misunderstanding becomes completely abated 

These emotions are now adequately plated 

Weight is lifted because of what I have stated

 Your apprehension of these words means nothing 

 Because to me these words means everything 

As my mind grows peaceful, with the joy I could sing 

 So continue as you wear yourself out trouncing 

I am in a devout pursuit of everlasting bliss 

Everything lies within for us to miss 

Still we send it away with a powerful hiss 

As we go on living our lives with so much remiss 

Covertly I will organize myself on an old notepad 

Because life is not just about the path of good or bad 

The more I understand this I am so glad 

All I want is a path that wont leave me sad 

There will be no wrong one, so don't pretend to know 

With that I have no reason to let it show Someday 

I will reach the point where I can glow 

Where these thoughts of contentment I won't have to sow