Keeping Myself At Bay

By a heavy heart and tireless mind, may I always abide

Emotions can trigger an explosive reaction within

A raging fire consuming all that lies available

Fed by a substantial anger remaining so profound

I'm at a constant battle to stay placid and move in stride

Happiness and hope show me to raise my chin

They overcome me and I'm granted a feeling that is stable

Boldly peace yells out making the most joyous sound

I have a gifted ability to recall upon the good
When time begins to slow I am able to observe
My surrounding drawn in and accurately noted
The truth I never wish to distort
Constantly I try to reenact things like I should
I search to find what lays hidden in reserve
With my thoughts I become so bloated
With my poems my scary thoughts depart and I find comfort